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Um… I’m thinking, no “work” tomorrow, since there really isn’t a PA I can shadow tomorrow. I mean, I’ll probably just pick cases again & make sure the warmers are filled. What I’ll do instead tomorrow is bump up everything else I was going to do after work, so that I have more free time:

• WORK OUT! - Gotta lose that fat, not weight. I’ve realized I’m ok with it now. Just lose the fat stuff so I don’t look too gross this summer in a bathing suit.
• Read some articles for my thesis
• STUDY FOR THAT HUMAN A&P EXAM, which was supposed to be today -__-
• Read some more articles!!
• Look up some GRE stuff & figure out a date & prices for that….
• More STUDYING!!!!
• ICE CREAM & HANGOUT WITH NIKKIMACCC :D

There will be some breaks & procrastination in between all the studying; don’t ya worry ;)

One of my pet peeves is when people crack bones and such… purposely. I just don’t like the sound of it for some reason. *Weird, gross part coming up* I mean, when I’m dissecting something in Anatomy or whatever, I have no problem cracking bones to get through to what I need to see, but I don’t know. With people, it’s different somehow & I know it’s weird because I’m heading into the medical field; I’ll probably get over that eventually though… I hope. 

Anyway, the point of this is that lately, my shoulder has been cracking and popping a lot when I move it. Sometimes my ankles too, but not as often as my shoulder. This morning, it actually woke me up because I turned over to my right?, so that I was laying on my left side, and I just felt it pop. I usually feel it pop, but this was beyond annoying. It kind of hurt & I wanted to cry… and it woke me up, so I didn’t sleep anymore afraid that I would crack anything else. It literally felt as if I dislocated my shoulder. I can still kind of feel it…. ugh… -___- 

It isn’t about what everyone else thinks, it’s about what you think. That’s all that’s ever truly mattered.

Well obviously this isn’t working out so well. My exam that was supposed to be tomorrow  is now moved to Monday, which explains my lack in motivation. Ahhhh!!!! Chapter 1. Done. Chapter 2. Done. Chapter 3. Eh…. Chapter 24. I don’t want to be over-confident because a huge chunk of this review for me; high school stuff. I knew everything she was talking about in lecture before I even read the chapters. And she briefly went over some example questions for how the format of the exam is going to be like, which seemed pretty easy. I was able to answer them. 

But I know what happens when I’m confident. Just like what happened in a few of my exams this year, what I thought I did well on was actually a BIG fail on my part. I don’t want that again. I’m actually really mad at my practical today. Pretty sure there were lots of answers that I second guessed myself and changed it. Smh. I’ll cry if that practical is a C or B-. I’ll let a B slide, but I so could have gotten an A T.T I will hate myself so much for this because with a course like this, it only gets harder.